Here goes...
I can write this here because no one I know in real life reads this.
For over a year I had this crazy bf. I broke up with him about 4 times.
He was from calibut moved here to live with his mom but when I broke up with him the 3rd time he moved back to cali. After a few months we started talking again and he sold his truck and moved back to missouri and we got back together. The only way he would move back is if I got a place with him. So i did that...turned my back on my family and friends everyone who cared about me. Anyhow we only lasted about 3 months and I dumped him b/c he ended up in the hospital(panic attack) and jail in less than 12 hours. That was enough for me. I knew all along he was competely wrong for me but kept trying to make it 'work'. anyhow after we broke up he stayed in mo like 2 or 3 months and then moved back to cali to go to job core. Things have never been good between us since he moved back to cali but he was and is always begging me to come back to him. anyhow turns out he has moved back here and I told him I don't want to see or talk to him at all but deep down inside me I do want to see him and hug him. It's terrible. When I knew he was in cali I wanted nothing to do with him and now that he is in the same town I feel competely different. I am kind of sad. I have to stay strong though. I cannot get involved with him because he put me and my family..friends..through a lot. I had no idea I could feel this was b/c I was so over him.